Anxiety ft. Fabolous

FABO
Breathe” from the album Real Talk
One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Then you gotta breathe!

Vivi feels the rush of heat expand inside, outward and through her skin. She knows breathing won’t help. Neither does reminding herself to.

You niggas can’t share my air
Or walk a mile in the pair I wear
And I’m getting better year by year…
…And I pace myself..
…And space myself
And just take a deep breath

It was just a mistake. She made it. But Olivienne’s body had a habit of defying her brain’s logic. She’s panicking, she’s scared and she is upset. No. She is disappointed in herself and angry at having feelings. Feelings that she shouldn’t have.

They rather see me lay in the hearse than lay in the back
And I ain’t just laying a verse
I’m saying the facts

Vivi feels her value being drawn from her like life points on a video game, but there are no visible rings, 1Ups or tiny hearts to grab to feel better. It’ll take refocus, perhaps a successful moment, to slow her heart, calm her body- ease her mind. Vivi turns on the music. She knows she must move on and she will.

Anxiety is real. Vivi’s knee bounces as she tries to smile out of it.

“One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Just breathe Vivi, just breathe…”

 


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